We all look alike, especially at events like graduations. Like this one where Kailey (second from the left) graduated from the 8th grade. Don’t let the smiles fool you. We were sitting on bleachers right under the speakers. We were pissed. Really pissed.
Last Friday, I made a Decision. I use the capitol “D” on purpose, to stress the intense and somewhat traumatizing effects. Just like I refer to “high school” as “High School” and the “internet” as the “Internet,” this Decision is going to effect me for the rest of my life. And it is slightly traumatizing. Just like High School and the Internet.
While I am not entirely prepared to tell the Internet about this Decision per se (look at all those capitol letters!), I am prepared to discuss how my life has changed since last Friday.
First off, I have used my phone no less than 5 times EVERY day. Considering there have been months where I have talked on the phone for less than 40 minutes TOTAL (I have phone bills to prove it), this is a huge change. I also sat down and went though all of my voice mails (there were 15, 5 of which were my sister getting more and more annoyed) and replied to them all. While this is normal-person behavior, it is not something that I am good at. Doing it was both difficult and cathartic. I am now even at the point where I don’t even groan when my phone rings, and I instead look forward to seeing who I get to talk to.
I have also gone to bed 2 hours earlier than I usually go to bed, and I am working on waking up as early as possible. Since I have been known to sleep until 4 IN THE AFTERNOON, I consider this my biggest triumph/challenge.
I have also gone out with friends, called my parents, and told people IN REAL LIFE about my etsy shop. It’s like I’m a new person! I’m not so afraid anymore, and I am working on being less afraid every day. Some days are better than others, some days I still cut phone conversations short, but some days I am so unafraid I don’t even recognize myself.
It’s only been 10 days, and I can’t wait to see what happens in the next 10.
What are your recent (or not so recent) Decisions?
Last night, Alex and I were talking and he pulls out this fancy Communications jargon. I told him he needs to stop taking communications classes because it makes me feel stupid when he sounds smart in non-math things. He said he would think about it. Small wins, people. Small. Wins.
Our conversation:
I visited my sister in Santa Barbara over the weekend and we drove down to Los Angeles to spend the 4th with my parents. On the way down we stopped on the side of the PCH and bought strawberries from a woman with nothing but a minivan full of strawberries and a hand painted sign. I am not usually a fan of this particular fruit, but these were AMAZING. Like fucking fantastic. So I naturally immortalized them with a picture.
